I apologize in advance for another unhappy post. I was upset at the fact that the house’s heater wasn’t working and I was worried for my pets’ safety. Good thing my parents knew about it in the morning and had a heater ready for them. Poof will survive because he’s a trooper. My jardine parrot (native to Africa) and pineapple conure (native to South America), both need heat to survive. House was at 15°C.
I’m not happy with my bf because out of the four consecutive days I’ve been getting heartburn, he was there for just one. If I don’t make an effort to go see him, I won’t be seeing him sort of deal. He’s not going to agree to this… but it sure feels that way to me. This is why I’m trying to put a limit to my feelings for him. He knows i’m going on a trip for 10 days, because of our schedules though (actually mostly his), we can only see each other about three times a week. Why does it seem little when it’s already 3 times a week? We don’t really talk much when we’re apart. We mostly use Whatsapp to make arrangements to meet up.
If you want someone who isn’t as clingy, that two or three days is enough for you, then I’ll have to let my feelings subside for you. Right now, it’s not enough to me and it upsets me. I didn’t mind it when we were just dating and we met up once a week but my feelings weren’t strong back then.
It bothers me when he says, “I wish you were right here next to me” or “I wanted to call but didn’t want to wake you up.” Stop wishing and make it happen like I would? Buddy, I’m in pain, why don’t you try cancelling your plans for me instead? I’m not asking you to do it for me all the time. Just from time to time so I don’t come to this conclusion about you. If you can’t make special arrangements, then that’s that. I’m not going to come over when I’m NOT feeling well anymore. I’ve dropped by over to your place for the simple reason of just missing you. I can’t always be an understanding girlfriend LOL, especially not when I’m in legit pain.
Yeah, things are starting to bother me now. The less time we spend together, the more faults I start to see in this relationship. I’m sure I love him, just not unconditionally. Meanwhile he claims it’s unconditional on his part, I don’t feel it… not to that degree.